Always, you’re throwing glances my way. You look at me like you could save me, you could you k

Personal: Hellooo! :) I promise I did not forget about you guys. I just got back from my lovely two week vacation in Florida. It was such a nice break from everything & such a great way to end school. Just laying on a beach tanning can really wash all of your worries away. But all in all it's still really nice to be back home & back into my normal routine of things. I missed all my family & friends a bunch & especially Ben! It was soooo good to see him again after being gone for that long & we've hung out almost every day since we've been back.  :)<3 Also, I finally got my permit before I left for vaca...it only took me a year and seven months. ha But I still have no intentions to drive any time soon. I'm just glad now that everyone is off my back about it and they can shut the hell up. :) But in mental health news I guess you could say I'm doing a bit better, although I still have my fair share of bad days. :P I actually started researching psychiatrists in the area & who I could possibly go to. Now the problem is just finally telling my parents that I may have some serious issues. Because that's every parents dream, right? :P But anyways, I'm still just trying to figure things out & hoping for the best. I would loveee to get more feedback from you guys so please please please feel free to comment, subscribe, rec, & all that good stuff. Thanks & enjoy! :)

The end. I hope you guys liked the update (finally) and please subscribe, comment, rec, etc. It would mean a lot to me! :)

I wanna feel a car crash cause I'm dying on the inside, I wanna let go & know that I'll be alright

Hiii all! Sorry I haven't gotten around to updating, this week has been crazyyyy! Friday was prom & then I had a million and one things happening. There's 9 days of school left & all this drama is bubbling up & I can't wait to just be done with it & leave for Florida. :P But prom was super great :) I loved my dress & hair and I just had such an amazing time with Ben. Anyways, here's a lovely update for you guys now that I actually have a free hour. Please please please comment & rec! I'd like to get some more feedback. So thanks & enjoy :)

That is all. Comment & rec. please!

Old habits die hard when you've got a sentimental heart

Personal: My issue now is that everything is alright. School is ending, summer is beginning, Ben & I are going on 5 months together, & I’m finally feeling some what normal again, but I can’t seem to let myself be okay with that. Depression, sadness, numbness, tears. They were all such a big part of my life for the last 6 months & it’s almost as if I’m afraid to fully commit to being happy because what if in an instant it all comes crashing down again and the depression consumes me. I don’t want to fall the whole way again. I can’t let myself feel that empty numbness that held me all winter. I’m waiting for something bad to happen or something that will send my spiraling back down. I’m looking around every corner in my mind, anxiously waiting for the dark cloud to set in. For so long all I wished for was happiness & now that it’s finally within my reach I won’t reach out and take it. I feel like I don’t know how to be fully happy anymore & I’m starting to majorly regret not getting help back in February when things were the worst because I feel like there’s no way to fix me now. I’m broken. Never again will I be the girl I was before.

Shitty ass day = depressing update

So yeah, that's about it. Hope you all are having a much better day!

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight, lead me out on the moonlit floor

Personal: In celebration of the SAT's being over I thought I'd do an update for you guys :) Not too sure how I did, if I was better this time than last...let's hope. Officially 26 days till Florida & I can not wait! I feel like I have so much shit to accomplish before I leave though. Prom is May 20th & I'm sorta starting to freak out cause I pick my dress up the 11th & prayyyy there is nothing wrong with it. And I'm still trying to figure out how the hell I'm gonna do my hair & make up...ugh, I just want it to be perfect. Is that so much to ask for? Also I realized the other day that the two weeks I'm in Florida will be during Ben & I's 6 months :( I'll be gone June 3rd-June 19th & on anniversary is on the 11th & he's already super bummed about me being gone for so long & now I just realized this! So since I'll be gone I'm trying to think of something super cute I can do. Like write 'I love you' in the sand and send him a pic or something. If you have any other ideas feel free to let me know. But that's my life as of now & like I said, heres the post. Enjoy! :)

I have a small coffee obsession<3

If I had a dollar for every sticky note I doodle on at work I'd be richhh

Oh what a beautiful view if you were never aware of what was around you

Hiiiii all! :) This is my first update so far & I'm kinda excited. So please feel free to comment & tell me what you think! Thanks.

Personal: This week has been rather dreary. The rain really hasn't stopped since last Friday & I'm ready for some epic sunshine. On the plus side I get to hang out with the boyfriend on Friday :)<3 and then take SAT's as the ass crack of sunshine on Saturday :P Only 22 days left till this year finally comes to an end & then my ass will be lying on a beach in Florida for two weeks! I cannot wait to get out of this town & get away for a while. I definitely need it after these last few months. But anyways, enough of my rambeling. Enjoy!

^I knew I wasn't the only one who ever wondered that!

Worlds greatest movie <3

Dane Cook <3